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Thursday, December 11, 2008
Uncertainty
Right now, my mind is still a blank...
Tryin to make myself study for the papers that ill b havin tml...
Yet, i've not started a single line...
This uncertain that im feelin is really makin myself feel uncertain towards the choices im makin frm here n later...
Seems like hopelessness is brewing around me...
Tryin to make myself study for the papers that ill b havin tml...
Yet, i've not started a single line...
This uncertain that im feelin is really makin myself feel uncertain towards the choices im makin frm here n later...
Seems like hopelessness is brewing around me...
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
Aint no smooth sailing...
It seems my life is taking a very rough course of a turnabout...
Nothing aint goin smooth sailing, n its a messed up life...
Tryin to fix it yet to no avail...
Soo ive been pondering y its as it has been
The only deduction that i can come out with is that mayb GOD is testing me now
To c whether my determination at this point will be the same as always since,
I've strayed frm my true choice of path abit with some negative thoughts
This stray was due to my immaturity which allowed me to be easily overtaken by my emotions n not being my composed self...
Oh how can regain myself?
Rite now, my mind is jus wondering around like ball rolling down a road waiting for a wall to block its way...
Im getting indecisive especially things that involves my livelihood issues such as my personal life, family, academics...
Yet, work is unaffected as an issue as its sumting that has to be done without much effort of using my mind...
Basically, working to me is sumthing that my body does by itself since its a norm that i do always since many yrs ago...
OK, OK, mayb not that many yrs ago but i've been doing it since aftr my O's
Y is working different than academics which i've been doing since i was a kid?
the difference is obvious to many ppl and i tink my answer is the same to them, as general.
AARRGGHH!!!!
I cant take it anymore!!!
im gona immerse myself in soul searching during the hols ba...
I cant take much more pressure n emotional instability any more than ive already been supressing
Anymore, n i feel like ill really break.
My composed self, is gettin too weak n fragile as time passes...
Luckily my family aint around for the coming wk, that means i can take my time recovering without much disturbance ba...
HOPEFULLY>>>
Nothing aint goin smooth sailing, n its a messed up life...
Tryin to fix it yet to no avail...
Soo ive been pondering y its as it has been
The only deduction that i can come out with is that mayb GOD is testing me now
To c whether my determination at this point will be the same as always since,
I've strayed frm my true choice of path abit with some negative thoughts
This stray was due to my immaturity which allowed me to be easily overtaken by my emotions n not being my composed self...
Oh how can regain myself?
Rite now, my mind is jus wondering around like ball rolling down a road waiting for a wall to block its way...
Im getting indecisive especially things that involves my livelihood issues such as my personal life, family, academics...
Yet, work is unaffected as an issue as its sumting that has to be done without much effort of using my mind...
Basically, working to me is sumthing that my body does by itself since its a norm that i do always since many yrs ago...
OK, OK, mayb not that many yrs ago but i've been doing it since aftr my O's
Y is working different than academics which i've been doing since i was a kid?
the difference is obvious to many ppl and i tink my answer is the same to them, as general.
AARRGGHH!!!!
I cant take it anymore!!!
im gona immerse myself in soul searching during the hols ba...
I cant take much more pressure n emotional instability any more than ive already been supressing
Anymore, n i feel like ill really break.
My composed self, is gettin too weak n fragile as time passes...
Luckily my family aint around for the coming wk, that means i can take my time recovering without much disturbance ba...
HOPEFULLY>>>
Winter ( Cold ) Time IN SG
Y am i tittling tis post as Winter? well its actualli winter according to places that snows lah.. But for SG, where we are soo close to the equator would jus melt all the snow before it even reaches anywhere near us...
Yet i still call in winter is because, for the past few days, been feeling damn cold in the mornings wen i wake up... My mum jus told me, wah singapore winter time liao...
She was tryin to tell me, even singapore can get cold though no snow...
WAKAKKAKA!!!
i told her, winter doesn't apply here... Only the winter winds that come down to our side cools down our air currents which causes this coldness...
Wen i was small my deduction was soo damn funny lah....
I said, the snow clouds come here but since too hot n sunny, it all melts away into heavy rains wakakakakaka
Then heavy downpour is equivilant to heavy snowfall
Ahahahahah
Was plain dumb then...
Yet i still call in winter is because, for the past few days, been feeling damn cold in the mornings wen i wake up... My mum jus told me, wah singapore winter time liao...
She was tryin to tell me, even singapore can get cold though no snow...
WAKAKKAKA!!!
i told her, winter doesn't apply here... Only the winter winds that come down to our side cools down our air currents which causes this coldness...
Wen i was small my deduction was soo damn funny lah....
I said, the snow clouds come here but since too hot n sunny, it all melts away into heavy rains wakakakakaka
Then heavy downpour is equivilant to heavy snowfall
Ahahahahah
Was plain dumb then...
Wednesday, December 3, 2008
Finally Line Trace On The Way
Finally strted on my line trace this mornin, i was the only one ther... does that mean the last group of ppl hav completed their line tracing?
I wouldnt say that i hav completed it but i can say that i managed to get all the necessary details onto many separate pieces of ppr which will be compiled mayb tmr aftr sch since im damn tired todae...
But the main issue is that i hope i didnt mess it up since i frgt to take note of the Nitrogen utilities supply line... do i hav to add that in?
I oredi took down those water line but any other utilities i totally frgt... OMG!!!
tmr will c how aftr i compiled into a A3 ppr size... if missin anything means thu i gotta go ther for a shrt trip bfr i submit it on fri
I wouldnt say that i hav completed it but i can say that i managed to get all the necessary details onto many separate pieces of ppr which will be compiled mayb tmr aftr sch since im damn tired todae...
But the main issue is that i hope i didnt mess it up since i frgt to take note of the Nitrogen utilities supply line... do i hav to add that in?
I oredi took down those water line but any other utilities i totally frgt... OMG!!!
tmr will c how aftr i compiled into a A3 ppr size... if missin anything means thu i gotta go ther for a shrt trip bfr i submit it on fri
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
My Medical Report
I don't wish to worry people about my personal condition and my own personal problems but, gotta declare what i have been hiding since my last post....
Coz, there are ppl out there who are bugging me to know soo i gotta tell them right?
Can't keep avoiding the issue all the time soo here is the declaration.
I have officially been infected with a viral infection. Cause of infection, type; unknown. Been on medication for the past few weeks. Doctors tell me, there are already a few recent cases around. Not that serious for me to be hospitalised as long as im under medication which reduces the chances of me spreading to those around me but, my immune system is currently at its lowest with bodily functions not in good condition.
Same symptoms recurring most of the time soo they suspect, the same family type of virus which kinda like influenza, many types that can keep infecting... On medical observation, if my condition worsens, referring to if i degrade to the point of hospitalisation, then ill be sent to the hospital for further treatment & check-up.
For now, hoping my body can create its own antibodies while on medication as an aid.
Due to the recent cases, been out of shape to attend classes. On alot of MCs.
Most of the time in bed. Sometimes can't sleep too although, medication causes drowsiness yet doesn't seem to affect me.
Coz, there are ppl out there who are bugging me to know soo i gotta tell them right?
Can't keep avoiding the issue all the time soo here is the declaration.
I have officially been infected with a viral infection. Cause of infection, type; unknown. Been on medication for the past few weeks. Doctors tell me, there are already a few recent cases around. Not that serious for me to be hospitalised as long as im under medication which reduces the chances of me spreading to those around me but, my immune system is currently at its lowest with bodily functions not in good condition.
Same symptoms recurring most of the time soo they suspect, the same family type of virus which kinda like influenza, many types that can keep infecting... On medical observation, if my condition worsens, referring to if i degrade to the point of hospitalisation, then ill be sent to the hospital for further treatment & check-up.
For now, hoping my body can create its own antibodies while on medication as an aid.
Due to the recent cases, been out of shape to attend classes. On alot of MCs.
Most of the time in bed. Sometimes can't sleep too although, medication causes drowsiness yet doesn't seem to affect me.
Monday, November 17, 2008
Unmotivated
It has been a long while since my last entry, ive been quite the slacker tis past 2 wks... i wouldnt say that i slack or basically not doin anything but rather been unmotivated to do much of anything...
Feelin moody and down, til ive kept on catchin viruses frm everywher... Especially my brother's
His has now officially passed onto me 2times... 2dae mornin, jus went to consult with doctor again...
If i dun get better in a few days time, i may hav to go n do a blood test and if the results not gd, may b refered to the hospital for further check up...
Haiz...
Skipped sch for an entire 2wks worth... missed quite alot liao... i realli need to find the time to catch up wif my lost studies... Sumore, ive been in bed most of the time.. yet unable to fall asleep as easily as i want... medication mostly drowsy, yet doesnt make me sleepy, jus make me stone away in a blank state of mind...
Wondering wat can motivate me once again... lookin for sources yet unable so far...
Feelin moody and down, til ive kept on catchin viruses frm everywher... Especially my brother's
His has now officially passed onto me 2times... 2dae mornin, jus went to consult with doctor again...
If i dun get better in a few days time, i may hav to go n do a blood test and if the results not gd, may b refered to the hospital for further check up...
Haiz...
Skipped sch for an entire 2wks worth... missed quite alot liao... i realli need to find the time to catch up wif my lost studies... Sumore, ive been in bed most of the time.. yet unable to fall asleep as easily as i want... medication mostly drowsy, yet doesnt make me sleepy, jus make me stone away in a blank state of mind...
Wondering wat can motivate me once again... lookin for sources yet unable so far...
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